A word i really like from your side

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im not sure if you remmber but yesterday you tell me somthing make happy & sad in the same time .

you know what you said .

you said :

" dont leave me mAjId

i am depend on ur love "

that really mean alot for me .

but also make feel the guilt , of what will happen if i lose you .

that make me sad

i dont want to hurt you in any way .

but again you cheer me up by that nice words ( from Andera ) :

" look, if BOTH want everything is possible but never can want only the one..it must want both... "

i was pleasure by those words But , shocked by you saying me :

" if u want stop me about my love what i feel to u ,

just block me and delete me from ur life ,

if u dont want to ,

i am here..... "

that hurt me alot im talking seriously

like im spending more than 3 hour daily with you , why ??

im not doing it to fun , i have long list of work to do but i put you in the start of the list or even delay all my list only for you .. have u ask your self why !!

why tell me ? cuz im a freezy person . who can easly block you or delete you !

or just to spend some time taking with you just to say blabla . . .

ASK YOUR SELF WHY ?

why mAjId Doing all that ?

i Know how much you care about me , but this not all what im asking dear

i need you to understand more my pains

That all 4 Now .

Dont get shocked

Dont get shocked Dear ,

Its just a small drop of water from a huge ocen full of emotion .

i hope that day by day reading these dairy you will understand me more .

hope that u will know why i was acting freezy some period of the time .

and even still thinking that im still freezy cuz u didnt see what i have inside my heart .

Question : Have you seen your self with no mirror ?

Answer : No .

that why dear u cant see what inside my heart cuz u r the one inside it .

still freezy person ?

with days i will answer all other your questions . just let time go on

hope that you will satisfied by all my answers .

Hope that you like it

Yes my sweet , i want to show you how much you mean for me . i was thinking all the time how can i do it , how to make you feel the pain im suffering all the time .

im here just to write a dairy of some Love story , a Love story that start very weird with no introduction , just that it happen with time between two remote person from different cultures , countries , race . but still that they join many things in common and day after day the get deeper in each other and surprised both by how much they have in common .

dear all world i will told you more about how the story start and how events comes in daily life , a life with only emotion and trust . there is no touching no huging no eyes contacts just that great feeling toward eachother .

I think many will ask me about the END of this story . but really i dont know .

To tell you the truth im writing here for some purpose , i mean if this story have a sad END then this will show how much i was hoenst with you LINDA .

yeah I really love u . u changed my life

but for pain dear , cuz i can't hold those hands

i cant taste those lips

i cant surf by my fingeres in you hair .

just to say i LOVE you LINDA .

and wish that u understand me dear .